Thursday, December 07, 2006prom and after tat
yo!
finally prom over!!
hahas.
can concentrate find job alr.
anyways.
had a great time at the prom.
hahas.
oh ya.
puyuan is prom king!!
hahas.
congrats!
ermx....
after prom went lim's hse..
VERY TIRED after that..
oh ya..
watchin scissors paper stone now.
hahas.
qiaoen quite cute.
story line not bad
oh ya! i've completed jie hu.
hahas. very cool show.
make me thinka lot about what is marriage.
oh ya.
watchin hami kimi or
hua yang shao nian shao nu..
i have to admit wu zun really very shuai.
hahas.
i love ella!! her acting damn good.
i am hoping to see jj soon!!!
wang dong chen also not bad!!
but i like the nan xue zhang!
oh gosh
he very cute and shuai!!!!
muaahahhahs. nvm.
i like the song zen me ban.
so cute.
anyway.
back to what i wanted to say.
finally.
it's over.
after so long so long.
everything has ended.
like hu ge's song.
tian liang le.
anyway.
may not get to use com tomorro.
family relations with the
ppl in my hse gettin worse again.
i may have to escape to
ku ma hse again but then hor.
no internet.
how to watch show?
then i'll have to watch
my girl or goog or jie hun again.
i wldnt mind.
it's better than
staying at home and
kena drove to death.
my mum's tryin to make my life hard.
i must survive!!!
wenx.
hyuati!
still thinking of you at-
Monday, December 04, 2006tp rawks
i went for tp rawks. really very nice!!!
noe a lot of very nice ppl.
like june, mayos, ben chow chow, john, farhan, lex and etc~~~
hahas. theyverynice.
had a tough morning at the adventure side. keep falling off
but later quite cool.
sandra went with me and later got yi feng and yong jie.
hahas. he gave me and san a heart shape toy from ikea. thanks!!!!
lols.
i love the engineering school codebreaker and design signature.
me and san won!!
with a smiley face!! muahahahas.
oh ya.
we came to realise the ben chow chow was zhong se qing you. lols.
sandra and me almost qi si.
somemore still take away our bulb.hahahs.
lols.
we win okie.still dare to say we slow.
lols.
then we came to know yi jie.
he was kinda cool person i think. hhas.
anyway.
we got the sticker thingy for the pack leaders.
that was kinda fun. muahahahahahahas.
then got jam and hop. hop?
i think so.lols.
very nice.but went home at 8.00 plus.
love tp man!
i am going to join for sure.
lols. i going to open hse.
anyone joining? tell me hor
still thinking of you at-
Thursday, November 30, 2006天亮以后
或许我们都到不了
没有理由在苦笑只是煎熬
反复练习的拥抱天亮以后就看不到
不能陪你到苍老陪你到老
我不知道还有谁能像我让你依靠
我只希望你会牢记我的好
天亮以后就再也牵不到你的手
天亮以后我会慢慢离开你的梦
不敢说再见就是无法说出口
天亮以后留住你该用什么理由
天亮以后留下的就只剩下寂寞
所有的痛都由我默默承受
我以为我做得到抱着你到天荒地老
爱你我感到骄傲什么都好期待着你的拥抱
也许这机会太渺小
流着眼泪苦着笑我怎么逃
空荡的梦怎么写我们的从今以后
握紧着手看不到再见的尽头
天亮以后就再也牵不到你的手
天亮以后我会慢慢离开你的梦
不敢说再见就是无法说出口
天亮以后留住你该用什么理由
天亮以后留下的就只剩下寂寞
所有的痛都由我默默承受
still thinking of you at-
Tuesday, November 28, 2006anyway
i'm backfrom my rest.
getting ready for prom.
hope to get done with it quickly so i can start
working for my korean tuition fees.
i nid money. moreover.
the prom cost me 200 bucks. yup. ah
nvm.
oh ya.
i'm watching my girl..
hahas. lee dong xu matured a lot
than i first watched him and
i didn't kow lee zhun ji was so man.
he's a real good actor.
admire his actin skills.
perfect "guardian angel"..
anyway
gtg.. ku ma bought goong....
watching it everynight.. hahas.
going to become vampire...
bye!
still thinking of you at-
Saturday, November 25, 2006a long long cry
haiis.
had a long log cry last night.. till i fell asleep.
nver felt so sad since secondary 2.. haiis...
feel like i am dead.. feel so not confident...
feel so.... nver mind... haiis.. i duno...
suddenly feel so lost... i nid a hand... perphaps...
i shdn't apppear ritex... haiis..
i wana fall into a deep deep sleep..haiis...
i gtg.. i shall leave this world for 5 days.. let e rest for a while...
then i'll come back...
i'll try to be i the past..
haiis. confidence all gone.
still thinking of you at-
Wednesday, November 15, 2006on the way to ending
omg
o level ending soon.
ahhahaha!
i am so stress about my results ow.sob
still thinking of you at-
Sunday, November 12, 2006in the midst of having the o lvl
hmmms.
half way thru o level.
i can only say.
it's very fast.
omg.
i have ended my school life!!!!
OMG.
it seems like its only ytd that i was wondering if im going to have any friends in nas.
but now.. BUT NOW...
i have to be troubled all over again!!!
ah!!!!
who's going to poly!!! tell me!!!
hahahahas.
ok. i am a bit mad le.
nver the mind.
muahahahahahahs.
i am so afraid of my results.
if not good, i'll prob faint or die.
"let me the one to hold you tight,
be the one you wait for every night."
"i'll always be by your side."
OMG.
rain's move on.
very nice.
hmmms.
i am going to change skin on this friday!!!!
hmmm!
that's 5 days later...!!!
AH~~~~
i have to survive thru 4 papers.
someone kill me....
muhahhahas
anyway.
my mum has arranged lots of activities for me after exam!!!
then i am going to find a job!!!
$$$$$$$$$$!!! i nid$$$$$
i nid money to support myself to study thru the korean language course i am taking at cambridge near may of 2007 that costs around $900 includin the exams....
then i nid money to buy the lots of no-ending clothes i nid for entering poly.. muahahahahas.
AND of course. i am in the middle of planning a trip to korea in 2008. i would have mastered my korean!!!muahahas. nvm.
i wan to find the goong place. but dunno tear down alr nort. then go rain's hse..muahahas/siao.
then go hoon's hse.scare him. siaosiao.
hmmms!
i wan to go lotte world and everland!!!!!!
ah~~~~
then eat all my food.
i shall buy lots of facial product back.
hahhas. get myself a cosmetic surgery.
hahahas.
i shall change sex.
muahahahas.
nvm mind.
really siao liaox.
anyway.
i prefer to be a girl.
cos i wanna be ku niang. i dun wanna to be called a gay or aqua.
muahahahahahahahaha.
ermx...
anyway..sister coming in soon... gtg... bye!!!!!!!!!!
still thinking of you at-
Friday, October 06, 2006o levels
gtg soon.
made a very temporary skin.
just wanna change before i cannot use the com anymore.
and i wanna say to all o levels pupils. jia you for your o!!!
i wan a 12 and below!!!
hahas.
GOOD LUCK!!!
still thinking of you at-
Sunday, September 24, 20061 day or 6 years
qi wei yi.
i liked you.
for 1 day or six years.
i dunno.
but all i can do.
is jing jing de ding ni ye ai wo.
ji shi shi san ge yue.
zhe,ye shi wo men de ai qing mi ma.
qi wei yi- yong yuan de meng
still thinking of you at-
Thursday, September 21, 2006HERE WE GO!!! 4R3 Rocks!!!
lols.
had a really tired day today. practiced and "auditioned" for our
grad day dance.
oh ya.
why "auditoned"?
cos all teams are in. lame rite...
"audition". hahahas.
okok. we had new steps and we had a great time dicussing the clothes and steps.
especially the clothes!!!
what colour? what type? can wear home clothes?! hahas.
we've all settled!!!
yeah!!
lols.
hope we'll do good and i think we are pretty strong!! lols
anyway.
hyuai-ti!
still thinking of you at-
Sunday, September 17, 2006Haiis. The Ratio.
*Note*
-No offence to all the guys in singapore-
-This following entry is just something discussed by the girls and is just pure our opinions. Please dont mind it too much.-
Oh ya~ hey. what thing made me research and you know what results make me have to say the note thing infront? hahas. it's bout guys lar of cos.
that day, the girls sort of discussed about the boys.
we were saying overall idols in the countries.
and as i was nagging...
"haiis. why all the boys in singapore like that de? dun have many juniors that can make seniors scream " awww. what a cute and handsome boy!" or seniors that can make us go " wow. that senior so shuai. tsk. i wan him!!!""
then i was thinking, and i compare the ratio of good looking boys and girls in our level, we find that in several classes, the ration of good looking boys and girls is 1:4.
for every good looking guy in the class, there will be at least 4 girls that look good.
what a sad ratio huh?
okie. this is just within the school.
let's go internationally.
heyy.
how many guys from overseas make girls go bonkers and spend money on them?
how many guys from singapore can make us spend as much money?
from an argument with someone,
we have concluded that if
korea has 17 handsome guys,
taiwan has 12,
hongkong has 7,
singapore will have only 2!
[ this applies to only celebrities ]
haiis.
what a sad sad sad ratio!!!
somemore the 2 in singapore is only "qi yu wu" and lin jun jie.
the more of agreed idols in singapore.
haiis.
haiis.
haiis.
anyway,
the girls= cannot say cos i need to protect their safety.
hahas.
still thinking of you at-
Wednesday, September 13, 2006!!!!! A List Of Korean Guys I Liked During This Holiday
Firstly, number 1 of all, is hoon!
OMG!
he's SOOO CUTE!
he's acing in goong and it's going to be on channel u soon.
catch him.
hahas. cute!
[9/10]
For his:
-cute
-handsome
-nice smile
-friendly and sweet
-charming eyes
-blur look
Name : Kim Jeong Hoon
Birthday: : 20/1/1980
Height : 179cm
Weight: 60kg
Secondly, is siwon!!!!!!
OMG!!!
hey.
he's only 19!!!!!
OMG. i haven been able to find anyone as nice as him under twenty in singapore so far.
hey. not our class.
singapore ok.
only 19 alr look so man but yet so cool.
[9.5/10]
For his:
-young yet cool~
-great dancing skills
-nice acting
-kawaii in show
-a great taekwando player(taekwando dunno correct or not)
-and his cute smile!!!
Name:Cui Si Won
Birthday:10/2/1987
Blood Type:B
Height:183CM
Weight:60kg
Thirdly,
Soo yong!!!
OMG.i didn't know that he could be soooo shuai too.
hahahs. very cute de leh.
[7/10]
-GREAT ACTING SKILLS.
-very fast can cry skills ( omg. break my heart.)
-nice smile
-very comical
-mature
Name: Ryoo Soo Yeong(Yu Nan Shan)
Birthday：5/9/1979
Height：183cm
Weight：69kg
second last, HYUN BIN.
hahas. one of my hot favs.
he's so cute yet handsome and.. YA!
[8.99999/10]
-handsome!
-serious
-plays piano VERY WELL and sings pretty good
Name:Hyun Bin (Real Name:Kim Tae Pin)
Birthday:25/9/1982
Height:184cm
Weight:74kg
Blood Type：O
Studies:Zhong Yang University (acting)
Hobbies:Acyting, swimming, basketball
Family: Has one elder brother
lastly, KANGTA!
OMG. have you heard him sing?
he's so good. his dancing also very good leh!
omg. so nice to see him in variety show performin this and that.
[8.5/10]
-sings VERY WELL
-dance VERY WELL
-VERY CUTE!!!!
Name: An Qi Xuan ( Kang Ta )
Birthday:10/10/1979
Blood Type: B
Height：182CM
Weight：65KG
still thinking of you at-
Sunday, September 10, 2006i start to like man that's old... old? matured?
hahax.
watched huan zhu ge ge and da chang jin again.
oh no!
i fell in love with min zheng hao again.
hahahs.
the huang shang also not bad lar.
i just noticed that the prince also not bad.
lols.
oh no.
i like men with beards!
oops!
hahas.
think i am in search for more matured guys that are able to think well...
min zheng hao!
hahas.
so shuai!
still thinking of you at-
Wednesday, September 06, 2006yeah!
new skin. hahas. kim sun ah oni.
lols.
a bit guai but she's the first woman i put on my blogskin.
hahahahahas. feel guai but i like her ao it's okie. i'm still doing a skin and it's HOON! my dear
cute hoon. hahas. dunno hu?
wait till i change blog skin ba.
muahahahahahs
still thinking of you at-
Tuesday, September 05, 2006hmmms.
ermx. i suddenly have sth to say. it's like people are always
putting in effort and doing things that doesn't benefit themselves.
but these people never stop putting in their effort becos what they want is not fame
but recognition. at least, that's what i feel.
i mean when people put in effort, they hope to see sth out of it. people enjoy
and like what they are trying to do and they do appreciate.
i think that appreciating someone's work is really important cos it gives the person more and more energy to move on and to push themselves harder.
so.... ya... ermx. hahas. i also dunno what i am talking about le. nvm.
muahahahahahas.
anyway. oh ya. i wan learn korean.
hey yee chien.
let's learn together.. but can after o levels. hahahs.
still thinking of you at-
Monday, September 04, 2006dun confuse me!!!!!!
oh. watched a lot on the national geographic channel...
ytd watched mummification in china. wow.
diva mummies leh.
even after two thousand years, their everything still intact!! their lungs all those haven decompose yet! omg. when i watched i told myself, never bury myself, i dun wanna turn so ugly. hehe.
then today continued watching.
but today is about lions' hunting.
they were going after elephants in the dry seasons where they elephants come in big group and search for water.
hey. i heard sth.
lions sleep 20 hours a day! omg.
they are more pig than pigs. lols.
but when they kill the calf, (is that how i spell?), they look so cruel. omg. so disgusting. their face and mouth all filled with blood.
hmmms.
i think that when i am saying the lions are disgusting, i feel disgusted myswlf. cos humans are like the lions. or even more cruel than them. think that is how hunt for our food too. and we kill much more animals than the lions do.
haiis.
think this is just a cycle.
hate this so much.
then it's a programme about fat plague.
some scientists say that obesity is a type of disease and it is caused by a virus name AD36.(if i never rmb wrongly.) haiis. am i affected?
find me a cure before i die becos of crying due to embarrassment by others.
= (
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oh ya. ytd i cooked korean meal. it sort of resulted in a lil disaster cos i did everything in a rush.but luckily. the food was nice. muahahahas.
then oh ya.
Burger King.
sorry lar.
won pang seh you nxt time. hahahs.
you enjoyed your time with cheryl too rite. hehehehe..
pai seh lar.
anyway. gtg. watch sth. i wanna watch silence. love zai zai so much.
cough. hehe. bye
still thinking of you at-
Saturday, September 02, 2006happy birthday shan and meiqi!
went to escape. though it is a very strange combi.
erm.
sandra first to reach.
so nan de.
hahahahahs.
then went in then take family coaster and viking.
then wet n wild.
hahas.
kena like siao.
very wet lar.
then continue playing.
yucks.
i hate the vitagen.
i almost fainted taking that.
hahas.
during lunch.
we went out and played at the arcade.
the most memorable shd be the photo hunt with the women.
ooh~
hahahahs.
then went back escape.
played go kart!
yeah.
my fav. in escape.
hope to play on the professional track again.
plaed only once.
hmmms.
must play again.
then ermx.
we played until around.
oops.
i forgot.
hee.
erm.
went tam to meet huang yi they all.
oh ya.
ate the korean ice cream.
hhmmmmm.
i miss korea sooooooooo much!!!
ah.
i wan to go back.
anyway.
i have to stop here.
going out with cheryl.
gtg.
bye!!!
still thinking of you at-
Thursday, August 31, 2006happy teachers day
happy teachers day to all teachers in the world.
had a chaotic day in school.
when collecting cake, me meiqi and jasmine became drenched.
sobx.
anyway.
the party is rather ok.
at least.
it didn't failed.
we had quite lots of cher okie.
muahahahas.
got their pic.
muahahahahas.
anyway. enjoyed the day then went cheryl's hse for lunch.
then ermx.
watched final destination 3.
OMG.
no wonder m18.
got naked women.
hey guys.
dun "oh~~~"
cos they are BURNT TO THEIR DEATH!
aiyo.it's totally a saddist show. you can try watching.
anyway.
going out soon.
wanna wish shan and meiqi happy birthday.
though it's a bit early.
hahahahhahas.
bye~
still thinking of you at-
Monday, August 28, 2006the day i'll leave
i dun wan to handle anymore of these things le.
the day i cannot take it.
i'll just leave.
i dont care anymore.
still thinking of you at-
Sunday, August 27, 2006hey. i am really tired now.
The main and most important factor leading to the wenX's revolution is due to the hard life of the wenX. The wenX make up 1/4 of the population in the empire.
However,the wenX is seriously treated badly by the 3/4 of the population, which is a group of people made up of the mother, the father and the sister. What the group of people did was to treat the wenX as labourer, peasants where they could obtained their benefits and to make full use of.They also carry out state propaganda in order to make the wenX look as if she is pathetic.
Becos of the bad and harsh treatemnt, the wenX can only escape to another country namely, her aunt house. The ruler and people in her aunt house always treated her with respect and never ill treated her. Hence, it is not surprising that if there is a revolution, the wenX will support her aunt house.
Becos of the harsh treament received, her aunt house has give a speech saying that they will help any helpless minority who are bullied by armed forces or potentially evil parties. Then, there was a revolution led by the armies from her aunt house. Hence,troops were over to warn the group of people consisting the mother, the father and the sister that the wenX should never be ill treated. The wenX shall be treated with respect and given more authority.Finally, being afraid that there may be heavy killing, the group of people agreed but the agreement to treat the wenX nicely was never carried out. They continue to treat her badly.
In conclusion, due to the hard life of the wenX that led the wenX to feel unfair, causing the wenX going into another country allowing another country's foreign intervention, the hard life of the wenX is the most important factor.
Other factors include bias treatment compared to the sister and also giving of more money to the sister and allowing the sister to move into the wenX area.
still thinking of you at-
Wednesday, August 23, 2006hiies
hiies people.
i am so back with the new skin and blog web.
http://thewenx-shop.blogspot.com
feel free to drop me a msg and also. link my new add.
oh yeah!
i'll be back with new contents.
there will be introduction not only bout my life, and also, shopping, korea, taiwan, shows and hot stuff.
stay tune for more!
love ya.
wish all ppl in nas have good luck in their prelims.
hyuai- ti!
still thinking of you at-
Thursday, July 27, 2006oh ya. i'm sorry but kiss you goodbye
hey. blog! i'm going off to a faraway place. takkaiir of yourself...
i'll be back by 12/9/06.
hehe.
off for a trip. bye!
i'll pass by to drop a msg if possible.
muacks
still thinking of you at-
mp4 in USE
hahahahahas. i finally can convert my mtv format le. though the video not VERY CLEAR but at least i can watch video le
muahahahahas
still thinking of you at-
Wednesday, July 26, 2006dun like
i DONT LIKE people to BLAME ME for THINGS I DID NOT DO.
it is so TRUE that being GOOD TO OTHERS is a STUPID THING.
still thinking of you at-
Sunday, July 23, 2006dun ask me
dun ask me if i understand the pain that i nid to go thru when i am in love.
cos i dont know the answer.
but if you ask me if i understand the pain that i have went thru durin those lonely nights.
i can tell you.
i have plenty.
still thinking of you at-
Friday, July 21, 2006new skin: i'm waiting
hmmms.
recently not that sad le lar.
think i can let go a bit.
maybe still have a little sad.
but i have decided to not think bout it and instead.
focus on my studies.
time to chiong le lar.
prelims in 3 wks time!
my god.
hmmms.
i like the song sia.
rong zu er's song.
i like the things she said infront.
very cool.
cos that's what i'll do?
i'm waiting for you.
still thinking of you at-
Wednesday, July 19, 2006miss goh!
you know i can't resist the temptation to blog.
oh ya!
went ngee ann poly today.
hmmms!
great fun!
saw MISS GOH!!!
yeah!
hahahas.
so LONG nver see her.
almost a yr?
hmmms.
7 months.
sth like that. aiyo.
nver get to tok to her.
the engineering cher so fun.
jk tan.
lols.
he damn lamn.
how to make a person disappear?
ans: close your eyes.
lame rite.
then later saw jerry.
hahas.
he make me so stress.
ah!!!
nvm'
i'll try my best to study hard.
= )
still thinking of you at-
Monday, July 17, 2006since you've been gone-
still thinking of you at-
Sunday, July 16, 2006forgot to say
forgot to say a strange woman to day in front of me shop looked at me then turned to her boy friend and started kiss.
i =.=
then turned away.
hahahs.
damn digustin!!
RIGHT INFRONT OF THE SHOP!!!
still thinking of you at-
strange things do happen when you observe
hmmms.
today had work.
so tired now.
blog then gtg le.
ermx.
today got many shuai ge walking around.
hahahas.
very tall leh.
lols.
hmmms.
today every easily jiu cry le.
haiis.
ytd fault.
i told you guys not to tok about the topic and HIM.
I HATE HIM.
IT'S A FACT THAT IS NOT GOING TO CHANGE.
oh yeah.
wonderful life is so damn nice.
oh my god.
hahahs.
he so damn cute.
jin zai yuan.
lols.
still thinking of you at-
Saturday, July 15, 2006to be continued....
*in other country. not sure. *
' hey mummy. buy this fer me leh'
' dun wan. so expensive.'
*mum goes off for other goodies*
'sianx.'
*walk off*
*and i dunno why. i started running*
*there was a guy behind me. he kept chasin. i had to run. i couldn't stop.*
* i kept crying when i ran*
*finally. i have came to a stop.*
*a stop at the top of the mall. where i was at the edge.*
*looking downwards.*
*i droped a tear*
and i woke up.
i didn't know if i was about to jump. but this was what i dreamt when i slept from 6 to 6.
strange dream huh.
i hope i can see the ending.
still thinking of you at-
Thursday, July 13, 2006i had this strange dream....
"ring~~~"
'hello? who's there?' * yawn*
'it's.. me.'
i opened my eyes, and looked at the clock on my phone.
'it's 1.00+ alr. why you haven sleep? something bother you?'
'nah. *sighs* just feeling down.'
'had a quarrel with her?'
'mm.'
'i see. where are you now. at home?'
'nah'
'what?!?! not at home at this hour? what are you doing? where are you?'
'at the lobby below your house.'
'WHAT~! im comin down. wait fer me. dun go.'
*went down*
'hey.i didn't wanna make you come down in the middle of the night.'
'slap you. tok so much. why? very serious quarrel?'
'yeah. i dun know why everytime when it comes to her. i get very easily angered.
is there sth wrong with me?'
' nah. cos you like her. that's why all her actions. even a sneeze, or a cough matters.
cos it's something called the LOVE.'
'i..'
'hmm. you are not going home ah?'
'yeah. dun feel like.'
'then dun stay here lar. so cold and creepy at night. go my hse lar. '
'your mum wun scold ah.'
'aiyo. she sleeping. wun know de lar.'
*nods*
*at my room*
'hey. dun think so much lar. sleep early kkx? i know you're tired.'
'whr you going to slp?'
' i sleep on the floor. you sleep on the bed. dun bargain that you wanna slp on the floor.
i bish you ah.'
'hahas. okok.'
'nitex. sweet dreams.'
'nitex. sweet dreams.'
*sleep~*
*yawns*
'eh? why i on bed?'
*turn*
'eh? whr he go?'
ring ring~
'hello?'
'hey! whr you go?'
'i cant sleep. cant bear to see you sleeping on the floor. erm. think that i shdn't stay at your hse.'
'why? you scared my mum scold ah?'
'cos i..'
'cos what...'
'cos i dun wanna hurt you.'
'why'
'i know you have been behind me all these time. and i know the reason why.
becos i know why. hence, the last person i wanna hurt is you.'
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then i wake up le.
i wake up with a tot" HUH?"
what's that dream about?
and i dun even know hu's the guy and the girl!!
i just saw a blurred image of a guy and a girl.
lols.
wonder if there is a continued episode tonight.
i'll try.
hehe.
byes~
still thinking of you at-
Tuesday, July 11, 2006tired!
aiyo. i am so tired.
i hate my mp4 sia
so ma fan
throw away ah.
haiis.
i very very very tired now.
you.
you.
yes you.
tell me.
shd i cry or shd i smile.
think i'll cry.
haiis.
it's like only how many days only.
** days?
what the hell.
still thinking of you at-
Monday, July 10, 2006Gone
What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care
You know you did itI'm gone
To find someone to live forIn this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone
Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit
Today
You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved onI'm already gone
There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it, babe
Take the hint and walk away
Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone
What you see's not what you get
What you see's not what you get
You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already goneI'm already gone
Oh, I'm already gone, gone, gone, gone
Already gone
I'm gone
Because Of You
still thinking of you at-
Sunday, July 09, 2006i'm tired
haiis.
i'm so tired.
and my mood is simply not good.
i have fever and headache now.
oh ya.
strips of water flowed down from my eyes in the mrt just now when i tot of you.
haiis.
what is happening to me.
just so tired.
hahas.
ku ma say hao gong ming not out yet.
whoosh.
still thinking of you at-
Thursday, July 06, 2006you know i can't smile without you.
hmmms. todae was a rather short day.
first had apex. had chem...
hmms...
did nth much.... then is chinese.. fell asleep!!!
aiyo. i must be too tired le...
then is forgot then got ss.
hahas. so many ppl gone. so strange then a maths finish question le
then can go le la. so strange then go eat le then go see ppl play basket ball.
i have decided not to be sad!
cos i nid to be stronger and not falter. cosi i still nid to stay by his side.
that requires energy!!!
still thinking of you at-
Wednesday, July 05, 2006to mdm azean, edwin and joseph
hey people.
get well soon kkx. hope to see you soon in school.
takkaiir.
still thinking of you at-
the pain. you'll never knw
haiis.
i know i know.
you liked her.
you watched her.
you stayed behind her.
you tried protecting her.
you gave your every focus to her.
i know i know.
haiis.
i liked you while you liked her
i watched you while you watched her.
i stayed behind you while you stayed behind her.
i tried to protect you while you tried protecting her.
i gave my every focus while you gave your every focus to her.
it's ok.
i know i know.
i knew but yet i still liked you.
so.
i have no other choice.
you can continue to like her, watch her, stay behind her, protect ,her, gave your focus to her.
but pls.
just allow me to watch you silently.
it's the only thing i wanna do.
still thinking of you at-
i just hope to see your shadows.
had normal lessons today. reached sch with jenny and amanda. later shan joined us. what a special combi rites.
erm. later is a maths i think. yea. correct. did trigo. ah. today mr sim late for 1/2 hour. hahahas. then it's history. aiyo. shrifah tok until i sianx. started drawing. "hurt"
haiis.
i am so luan now ok.
then it's recess. so malu eating my coco crunch. hahahahha.
then later met edwin they all to asked mdm azean for the dsa thing. erm.
then later had e maths. the prob is driving me crazy ok.
it's not easy lar
ok. at least for me.
then later. it's chinese. hahas. slack man. then it's chem. did nth i think. hahahahahs.
then is practical. aiyo. go up and down the class. so rubbish. did the experiment. hahas. quite happy with it. then had lunch and went home. had com until now. aiyo. i die. think i better lock my com. can't use every day le. i'll write down then one day type all together. hahas.
somemore now i write surely a lot about him de.
eh...
oh ya. today. i was just praying to see his shadows. just shadows it's sufficient.
luckily i met him accidentally. lols. hope come true. but had this strange feeling.
when you like someone, issit the person's every single action you'll go see and think.and then go rmb. hmmms. i'll check on the internet.
still thinking of you at-
Tuesday, July 04, 2006it'll never be the same again.
heyy.
i really not going to tell anyone.
cos i know if anyone knows..
it's grow bigger and bigger and bigger.
just want it to be like this.
so that i can stand behind you.
and silently watch you.
this is sth dedicated to you:
I call you up whenever things go wrong
You're always there you are my shoulder to cry on
I can't believe it took me quite so long
To take the forbidden step
Is this something that i might regret
Come on come on
Nothing ventured nothing gained
You are the one
The lonely heart that can't be tamed
Come on come on
I'm hoping that you feel the same
This is something that i can't forget
I thought that we would just be friends
Things will never be the same again
It's just the beginning
it's not the end
Things will never be the same again
It's not a secret anymore
Now we've opened up the door
Starting to knight him from the one
We'll never, never be the same again
Never be the same again
Now i know that we were close before
I'm glad i realized i need you so much more
And that i don't care what everyone will say
It's about you and me and we'll never be the same again
it'll never be the same
What i'm sayin'
My mindframe never changed'
til you came and rearranged
But sometimes it seems
Completely forbidden
To discover those feelings
That i kept so well hidden
When there's no competition
And you render my condition though improbable
It's not impossible
For a love that can be unstoppable to work
Are fine lines between fate and destiny
Do you believe in the things that were just meant to be
When you tell me the stories of your quest for me
Picturesque is the picture you paint effortlessly
And as our energies mix and begin to multiply
Everyday situations they start to simplify
So things will never be the same between you and i.
[[ heyy. i dun wanna let you know. cos i dun wanna the situation now to change.]]
still thinking of you at-
What a day!
today early morning go school. throat is like burning lar.
then is e maths learnt the tree diagram.
hahaa.
like shit only sia.
dunno how to draw. then is pe. played basketball. so not used to hot weather.
had been in places with air condition for too long..
hmmm.
then it's.... a maths. learnt trigo intergration.
oh my god!!!!!
hahahs.
diff. lor.
haiyo!!!
then it's eng.
cher crap so much. nth much. yann dar sat beside me
oh ya.
fabian go cut botak.
OMG!
i was like WOW.
hahahas.
then it's phy.
no lesson cos cher never come. erm
got my neoprints. then later.
is go the etiquette thingy.
hahahahas.
nver knew stupid things will happen.
after reaching is like they say must boy girl.
that one i know.
then i was like zaijun was my dining partner.
BUT I DIN KNOW MUZ PUT HAND go in.
LAME~~
then the whole meal like very disastrous for me.
learnt a lot.
what the wine can use two fingers out for girl.
must smile.
say good colour.
good smell.
good wine!
rubbish.
waste time.
this and that.
then we had soup.
it's ok...
then girls.
like me, mel , mq, gh, san decided to stand up and sit cos the
guys had to stand when the girls stand.
hahahs. later stand again.
but really go toilet.
hahahas.
GOT one thing damn malu.
coach luke used me as example.
what kao.
damn rubbish lar.
so damn malu.
luckily me and zai not bad friends sia.
or else next time nid to hit the walls when we see each other.
hahahas.
so damn full.
went back.
managed to change test date.
oh yea.
i decided to go audition. hahahahhaas.
dunno what to do.
hmmm.
still thinking of you at-
Monday, July 03, 2006oh no.
heyy.
i really dun understand.
how can this be man.
how can this ever happen to miie.
oh no!
i dun wan to like you.
cos it'll be very tiring.
but what can i do?
hmmms.
still thinking of you at-
The Tabasco Family
hahahahhas.
today managed to escape out of my house and
then go for eldds celebration!!!
woohoo!
erm.
me. yin yong. eugene. melissa. jon.
went there and waited. bought drink then
settles down at food court for the ppl to eat.
then went to arcade. hahahas.
later zsa and sharzelin(most likely spell wrongly)
ppl. correct me.
hhahas.
erxm. they came then jia yi also.
went around like ghost then finally settled in neo print shop.
lols. takin a 9-man neo print is hard!
lols.
then later took again. lols.
cheryl have funny logic.
she loves people lying on the floor.
hahahahahhas.
then had neo print.
uh oh. the bad part came.
ermx. dedicated to EDWIN SPECIALLY.
[hey. I AM REALLY SORRY
FOR THE MISCOMMUNICATION KKX.
za bo. cannot angry with da bo kkx. sorry sorry.
DUN ANGRY HOR.]
ok. back to story.
ermx.
then went icon then later go arcade.
play a damn stupid game lor.
hahahas.
the one that made us pay so much money.
lols.
it's a machine that makes you put in money to try to get the products inside.
edwin was trying to get the ipod nano.
and lim. the nokia phone.
hmmms.
i suck at that.
then saw edwin play drum.
i was like."oh my god~ how can the hand go so fast!"
lols.
and i heard joseph is even better. oh my.
then later had a hard time choosing what to eat for dinner.
before we went up.
saw 2 gal dressing like jap.
then we said now street fighter still popular meh?
why got chun li around?
lols.
then we didn't know what to eat. walked here and there.
my legs almost broke.
FINALLY.
we went to pasta mania.
hahaha.s
didn't feel like eatin.
then after cheryl ordered. me and edwin and mel was
thinkin hard to eat what pizza. finally. we decided on supreme.
but when we reached the counter.
we were like what!
7 inch very small. then 10 inch edwin say no diff.
hahas.
in the end guess what we got?
3 COMBO A.
lols.
then we started off the cheese mad. lols. me and edwin were cheese mad!
hi five!
then started "eating the cheese"
lols.
everyone tot we siao le. put so much cheese.
later zsa see us eat so shuang. went to buy one combo A also.
hahas.
then we started the madness!!
we started eating cheese powder.
and then cheryl was dared to eat cheese powder.
oh yea!
edwin tried cheese powder and tabasco and salt. lols.
think he nver finish.
then later cheryl got one dollar for her dare.
then edwin dare me to drink the whole bottle of tabasco.
then i took the bottle he jiu say dun wan le.
but later it became drink a spoonful of tabasco.
i'll get one free blog entry.
so i drank two.
hahas, edwin.
rmb my blog entry.
then later mel drank one.
zsa drank one.
then cheryl drank one.
hahas,
oh ya. i drank thrice. i mixed tabasco with cheese.
not bad.
oh yea.
then we left pasta mania with new record..
new records: finished 3 BOTTLES OF CHEESE POWDER.
DRANK TABASCO.
AND THINK WE WILL BE BLACK LISTED.
lols.
whoosh.
then later i think the girls started going drunk.
cos mel just reminded me that there is vinegar in the tabasco.
that means got alcohol.
then girls started going mad. lols.
we kept laughing and tokin like we are drunk.
went watson.
smack edwin in the public. lols.
then later went back to the arcade. we are really mad. kept screaming.
oh yeah.
then went home. hahahahs. on the mrt even worse.
i dunno how to use words to describe.
we were damn noisy. toking bout we are from
dunman high sec. and played one min of silence.
then laughed and luaghed.
in the mrt.
we had a conclusion.
[The Tabasco Family:
jonathan- the big apple aka. big boobs.
edwin- edwina aka. my za bo aka the cat.
me- the horniest sec 4 gal of the yr aka the got aka meh~ aka the da bo.
cheryl- horniest sec 2 aka my takeover.
mel- the dog.
zsa- the den neng den neng. ]
lols.
we had this goat jumped over the fence joke. lols.
finally i reached home.
hahahas. today is a damn mad day. oh ya. nver do hw at all.
will be home late tomorrow and have to study.
think my brain is rusty. heheheheh.
heyy. tabasco family. promised to go out kkx. muahahahahaha.
nite nite
still thinking of you at-
uh-oh
i think i...
i like you.
oh no.
oh shit.
no one shall ever know man.
nver!!!
still thinking of you at-
02.07.2006
the performance day. tried chiong to school.
then later started doing work and blah. got ready for the show. ate lunch. hahaha. i had this tie whr everyone say so cute. i really dun dare to wear it out normally. lols. then erm. 3 o'clock show quite cold but ithink it's pretty good. eh.. just that too fast. haiis. nearin dinner time. felt very sad. cos though all the good and bad. i have stayed in elds for 4 years. all the smiles, tears, laughter, anger... haiis. will become a past memory for me. haiis!!!!
then dun feel like eatin. ppl tot i was angry. no lar. relax. i am not. stupid tat go make me. asshole. hmmms! then later is 8 o'clock show. VERY GOOD LOR!!!!!
hahahs. loved the laughter ppl gave. hahahahahahahahas.
then later went down to celebrate. everyone is like damn happy. hahahas. cute little cheryl cried cos she's too happy. lols. gave her a famous mama hug. lols. she so cute. cheryl dun cry. u still have 2 more years to go. hahahahas.
ermx. then everyone was damn hyper except edwin. his eyes kena by abi. hahahas. takkkaiir.
oh ya. say edwin.
hmmmm! edwin ah. bias kia. hahahahas. jkjkjkjk. last day that i can every play with you like that le. just let me jk okie. i dunn wanna cry out.
then later played and played. found that my fifty dollars kena stolen. fuck man! which idiot took my money. ass hole. if i know i'll cut off the hair and shave all the eyebrow and eye lashes. asshole. hmmmm! stayed until damn late. stupid yin yong go scare the girls. hahahas luckily i dun believe. oh yeah. had a night racing!!! woo hoo!!!
hahahahahahas. so DAMN NICE to race in a truck. hahahahas.
so yeah. went mac and then home. hmmm. tired tired tired.
03.07.06
actually wanna study de. but peeps say go out celebrate!! woo-hoo! let's go man. oh yea. fifty dollars gone. pok liaox. nvm. go go go!!!!
still thinking of you at-
01.07.2006
it's really a tough day. managed to chiong to school with ku jeong's help. eh. then go jubilee hall... ermx.. all actors not around.
all peeps mover the props until we almost dropped dead.
what liaox. that rubbish bin keep giving sarcastic comments.
hmmm!
finally finished moving!!! yeah!!! played stupid games. danced. lols. play and play and played. said ghost stories. hahahas. scareded szeling. chey som hamni da! hahas. sorry sorry. lols. that's for eefect! lols. then actors come le. no more playing. seriuos work. did the sounds. blah blah blah.
then it's...... dinner time. oh yeah. finally. rice smeels better than lunch. had dinner at 8. almost fainted kkx.
then things coming up.
oh yeah. forgot mention.
rb bullied jiayi leh. stupid sia. everything blame student. then knew lots of ppl kena then cry... then when i was havin dinner.. she keep bitching.
hay. i got do my work ok?!?!
i qi kek lor. i got do my work she still so knn. fucker.
then i angry laiox. cried lor. nver so qi kek before.
then everyone started console me. haiis. sorry sorry. i really can't eat anymore. damn fuck up.
then everyone started breakking down. the seniors all damn qi kek la.
haiis. evem mdm azean cry. see what the kns rb is doing. suck her man. come elds destroy our peaceful life. idiot.
haiis. everyone is just NOT HAPPY. then went back to school.
everyone is just so tired.
still thinking of you at-
Friday, June 30, 2006it WUN CHANGE.
how long they can last,
is how long we can last.
i am never going to say sorry.
for i hate you.
still thinking of you at-
i'll just hang on.
hmmms.
it has been really tiring these few days. with eldds.
erm. nvm. performance going to come le.
then ELDS LIFE WILL HENCE END.
er... com has been down for a few days. so now.
finally hao le then i come back.
hahas. decided to do a new skin.
can't stand that girl anymore.
i have a feeling that she is
always looking at me..
then she will tun her head up. yucks.
i dun wan!!!
so i change. hahas. change to my fav dog. xiao Q.
so cute rites. hahahhas.
scared dogs but loved them. = )
eh.. think now i dunno what's inside of me.
very luan. everything is messed up.
i just want to lead a simple life now.
simple.
that's want i want.
still thinking of you at-
Saturday, June 24, 2006tired;
i'm very tired now.
really tired.
still thinking of you at-
Thursday, June 22, 2006finally back
hahas. decided to do a gothic skin.
hmmms.
after been cheered up by my lovely two friends, namely cheryl and annabelle.
hahas.
ok lar.
i kan kai ( see open. lols.) yi dian.
eh.
i think this skin wun be long. cos i also dun dare to look at the girl in the blog. hahahhahas.
but i think the pic is nice.
lols. kkx. gtg le. byee!
still thinking of you at-
heyy ppl.
i'm changing skin soon. shd be a gothic one.
cos i REALLY DUN FEEL HAPPY TODAY
it's not YOURFAULT.
but it's cos of YOU then i become so SAD.
haiis.
just wanna say.
i'll just stay silently behind.
still thinking of you at-
Tuesday, June 20, 2006Special Episode: David Aw
Hmmm.
let's see.
david aw.
know him since shooting stars. he was named jack toot there.
hahas. then later. nver see him act le. hais. so wasted. cos i think he acted rather well.
then later CIP saw him and got his signature.
now i think back like rather bad of me. go ppl house disturb ppl for signature.
I"M SO SORRY DAVID.
then later.... finally...
he acted in one new production: life story.
it's bout wei lian's story. hmmms.
think he improved rather a lot.
jennifer say he's not bad.
managed to propaganda my uncles and aunties to watch with me.
then later heard him sing.
eh....
not bad leh~
hahahas. think his singing also quite good
but when he sing chinese song like a bit... strange. hahas. okok.
then erm.
sze ling they all also got watch.
said he was good too.
SEE?
told you he's good.
so overall...
HE'S GOOD.
lols.
still thinking of you at-
Monday, June 19, 2006this time, perphaps, it is coming to a full stop before a new chapter
this time, i'll have to kiss you goodbye.
perphaps what i have heard as an advice is true.
perphaps.
it must come to a full stop.
i say again.
FULL STOP.
NOT ENDING.
cos i know. true love doesn't has an ending.
still thinking of you at-
Sunday, June 18, 2006Undying Love- Ep2
I let the boy wait outside as I got some of the leftover mee-yuk-gook for him.
He finished it in less than a minute.
Then he leaned back and sighed. Out of nowhere, he let out a burp. I had to giggle.
He looked at me and smiled. "Sorry about that."
"It's okay."
I hesitated before I asked him the next question.
"Umm…so what’s your name?"
He glanced at me and then stared at the ground.
I could tell he was debating to tell me his real name or not.
I didn’t want him to feel obligated to telling me his name.
"It's okay. You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to."
Ji Won looked at her surprised.
"No! It isn’t that!"he yelled.
She stared back at him surprised too. Then he lowered his voice.
"I'm sorry. Please don’t misunderstand."
She nodded her head slowly and Ji Won can tell that she was confused.
Ji Won felt that he could trust her and he wanted her to be his friend.
"My name is Eun Ji Won and you are?"
"Nam Mi-Na, but call me Mina. It's easier to remember."
Then she gave him the sweetest smile. Ji Won felt his heart beat a little faster when she smiled at him. He blushed and looks away.
"So uh, how old are you?"
"13,” she replied.
"And you Ji Wonee?" He smiled when she called him that.
"I'm 15," he said turning back to look at her.
"15?" I asked in disbelief. Ji Won nodded.
"Where are your parents? You’re too young to be living in the streets."
He shrugged his shoulders.
"I can take care of myself."
I gave him a doubting look because he was trying to pull that tough guy act on me.
"It's okay though,” he told me.
"I have a family. It's just tat things are bad at home so I’m just getting away from it for a while." 'So he ran away,' I figured out. I could tell that Ji Won was a good person.
"Do you have a place to stay tonight?"He shook his head.
"How about staying in my room then," I offered.
Ji Won couldn’t believe his ears. He stared at Mina.
'Did she just offer him a place to stay?'
"Ji Won?" Mina asked as she waved a hand in front of his face.
"Are you okay?"
Ji Won shook his head and snapped out of it.
She placed her hand on his knee.
"Hey, I asked if you want to stay in my room for tonight?"
Ji Won was so touched that he felt his heartache.
No one had ever cared about him so much but he didn’t want to feel as though he owed her.
"No thanks."
Mina looked at him with her big sad eyes.
"Please? I’m afraid of the dark."
Ji Won smiled. He knew she was lying so he would say yes.
For the first time in his life, Ji Won felt warm inside because now he is wanted.
He let out a sigh.
"Okay, Mina, okay. You talked me into it. But just for tonight though."
She giggled and nodded.
"Okay."
Silently, I led Ji Won into my room.
My room was small and luckily, it was far away from my parents so they can’t hear much.
I let Ji Won have the bed while I take the floor.
'Damn,' I thought.
'Why does the floor have to be so cold and hard?'
Ji Won stared down at Mina who was trying to sleep on the cold stone floor.
He picked her up easily and lifted her onto the bed.
"eh? What are you doing?"I whispered as my eyes grew wide.
"Do you trust me?" he asked. I nodded my head slowly.
"Good," he said.
"This bed is small but it’ll fit both of us."
My eyes grew wider at what Ji Won had just said. But I had just told him that I trust him.
I couldn’t take my words back so I had no choice but to sleep with him.
We both got in my bed and slept side-by-side.
I was so nervous, I couldn’t sleep.
Ji Won, on the other hand, had no problem. He fell asleep instantly.
I turned my head over to look at him.
His face was so innocent like an angel when he was sleeping.
Who would have thought he was such a devil when he’s awake and moving?
An hour had passed and it was 3’ in the morning.
I still couldn’t sleep. Suddenly something weird happen.
Ji Won turned his entire body around and did a 360, kicking me.
"Ow!" I cried out but covered my mouth so my parents wouldn’t hear me.
When he was done, he had this happy look on his face.
At first I thought he was just playing with me but he really did do a 360 in his sleep.
Suddenly he reached over and held me tight. My entire body went tense and rigid.
I could feel Ji Won’s light breathing on my neck.
I don’t know why but now that Ji Won was this close (practically laying on top of me) made me feel better.
It’s probably cause I’ve never been this close to a person in a long time.
Soon I began to fall asleep too...
still thinking of you at-
i'm SO TIRED
i'm sooooooooooooooooooooo tired now.
just came back from work.
hey. standing 10 hours with high heels is really TOUGH.
my legs almost broke when i reached home...
i'll not wear heels next week again. hmmmm.
nth much to say lar. but. ya. i'm tired.
i'll never forgive you.
for all the pain you gave.
still thinking of you at-
Saturday, June 17, 2006Undying Love- Ep1
October 31, 1993
"You better come back here you good for nothing brat!"
I covered my ears with my palms.
That was my stepmother calling me.
Her voice sounds murderous and I didn’t want to face her today.
She had slapped and hit me too much already.
I'm afraid I can’t take it anymore so I hid in my closet.
I peeked through the crack in my closet and saw my stepmom with a pissed off look on her face.
She was holding that stick that I’m always afraid of.
I winced thinking about how much it would hurt if she hits me with it again.
I'm just thirteen and whoever said 13 was an unlucky number, they were right.
My mom had died when I was just turning ten.
Before she died she told me that I was the most beautiful girl in the world and how proud she was to be my mother.
She said even though she'll be gone, her love is with me always.
Tears rolled down my cheeks.
'If you love me mommy, how can you be so selfish to leave me?'
So now when I had turn 13 my dad had married Mok Young A, who is my stepmom today.
She was a cold-hearted woman who tortured me all day.
Any self-esteem I had for myself was shattered and I was living a nightmare.
My closet door suddenly opened.
"There you are you wicked girl!"
My stepmom started cussing at me as she pulled me out and threw me onto the floor.
I began to tremble because I knew what was going to happen next.
*Whack whack whack.*
I cried out in pain but I knew that no one is going to hear my cries.
I desperately began to gasp for air.
My heart was aching again.
I couldn’t breathe.
"Not again! Don’t you see how much you’re costing your father and me with your heart problems? If it wasn’t for all these medical bills we wouldn’t be so poor now!"
I had this heart condition where air would suddenly shut off and I couldn’t breathe.
The doctors are tryingto save me by giving me a respirator and pills, but they’re not sure how much longer I’ll be able to live.
My dad (who was a pathetic excuse for a man) came in.
He looked down at me with sorrowful eyes.
He held my stepmom’s arm lightly and said, "I think she had enough. You don’t want her to have another attack. Calm down and let’s have dinner."
"That’s why I’m hitting her!" she yelled.
"She got detention and stayed after school for an hour. She was supposed to be home to go buy food for dinner and make it. Your daughter is so evil. She wants me to starve or something!"
"I didn’t get detention. The teacher wanted to talk to me about-"
But I was cut off by the whack of my stepmom’s stick.
I cried silently in pain and turned away. I didn’t want to look at her.
My dad said, “Well, dinner’s just going to be a little late today. Mina, say sorry to your mom.”Despite the pain, I managed to say, “Sorry mom. Please forgive me.”My dad handed me some money.
"Here. Go buy food to make mee-yuk-gook tonight."
My stepmom’s temper simmered down a little as my dad lead her out of my room.
I picked up the money and headed for the store.
Mr. Choi, the owner of Choi Food Market, shook his head as I walked in.
He knew what kind of hell I was going through. I finished my shopping and checked out.
"That’ll be $3.49."
"What?” I asked.
"Umm…Mr. Choi. That’s impossible. With all this stuff it should be around $15."
"I know Mina." Mr. Choi gave me a sad smile.
"The exact price is $14.32. Why don’t you keep the change for yourself?"
I opened my mouth in shock.
"Mr. Choi…I..I can’t do that," I said as I handed him 20.
He only took five.
"No. Keep it. I know that stepmom of yours don’t give you any money."
I looked up at Mr. Choi with tears in my eyes.
Here he was, just a friend reaching out to me.
I said thanks and headed for home.
I decided to take a shortcut home but as I passed the alley, a hand pulled me in.
I was knocked to the ground and a shadow hovered over me.
I began to scream but the same hand covered my mouth.
"Shut up or I’ll kill you!" I shut my mouth instantly.
I didn’t want to die yet.
In the moon’s reflection I got a good look of my attacker.
It was a boy who looked a little bit older than me.
His face and clothes were dirty but he had really good features so I could tell he was extremely good-looking. But this was not a time to think about such things. He held a table knife at my throat and said, "Give me all your money or I’ll kill you."
I panicked but I knew what to do.
I used the move I wanted to use on my stepmom every time she pinned me down and hit me.
I kicked him hard right into his family jewels.
He gasped and fell to the floor, dropping the knife.
I picked up my groceries and ran.
I was afraid I had kicked the boy too hard.
So I turned back. When I came back to the alley, the boy was still lying on the floor.
He was moaning softly. I lifted him up gently.
"Are you okay?" I asked. He shook his head.
"I’m sorry," I said to him.
I reached into my pocket and pulled the money Mr. Choi gave me.
"If you need money, then here. All I have is ten dollars."
I placed the money in his hand and walked away.
He looked at me with this weird expression that I couldn’t read.
I picked up my groceries and this time I left without turning back.
I could tell the boy was watching me as I was walking away...
Ji Won stared at the girl who had just walked away.
'She must be the nicest or dumbest person in this world,' he thought.
He began to stand up but had to use the wall for balance.
That girl had kicked him a little too hard.
Ji Won had just run away from home again.
He had ran away so many times that the alley was his second home.
When he ran away he always stole his parents’ money.
They were the richest people in all of Hawaii but they were also the most messed up family.
His dad would have a lot of women with him and would betray a friend if it would bring him money.
His mom, on the other hand, was an exact duplicate of his dad.
She always had these young men around her and spend money like crazy.
His parents were divorced and lived on opposite ends of Hawaii.
When he ran away this time, he didn’t have the chance to steal any money from his dad.
So he had no choice but to rob somebody.
When he saw the young girl walking out of the store, she seemed to be the perfect target.
But things didn’t turn out as planned.
Ji Won kept wondering why the girl gave him the money even though he could have killed her. Ji Won knew he couldn’t take the money because she was the first person in his messed up life that was nice to him because she wanted to be, not because she wanted something from him.
He wanted to give the money back.
When he gained some of his strength back, he began to chase her...
When I came home, I was greeted by the usual words.
'Ugly wretch, wicked girl, freeloader...'
Luckily I made it through dinner.
When dinner ended,my parents went to sleep,leaving me with the dishes.
I cleaned the table and washed the dishes.
I also took out the trash and then suddenly I felt someone grab me from behind.
My attacker turned me around to face him.
It was the same boy I met in the alley.
I began to panic. "I gave you all my money already! What more do you want from me?"
He raised a finger to his lips and tried to shush me. I felt one of my attacks coming on.
I started to hyperventilate and couldn’t breathe. I was beginning to black out.
Ji Won looked at the girl who looked like she was going to die.
"Oh my God! Are you okay?" This time it was the girl’s turn to shake her head.
Then she collapsed in his arms.
Ji Won didn’t know what to do but he had to save her life.
He began to give her mouth to mouth.
"Come on," he whispered to her. "Breathe. Don’t die on me."
After a while she began coughing and opened her eyes.
I opened my eyes and saw a blurry object heading towards me.
Then I felt something soft pressing against my lips and I felt a gust of air.
Then I realized the boy was giving me air. I couldn’t believe what was happening.
I blushed and gently pushed him away.
"Thank you for saving me. I’m okay now."
The boy turned slightly red.
"Uhh…you’re welcome. You kinda scared me there."
"Sorry about that. Well, what is it that you want from me?"
"Here."
He handed me back the same ten dollars I had given him. I looked up at him.
"No, it’s okay. Keep it. I think you need it or you wouldn’t have tried to rob me."
He shook his head. "No. I just wanted to borrow it only. I don’t take charity. Well, goodbye."
Just as he walked away, I heard his stomach grumble.
I bit my tongue so I wouldn’t laugh.
Since he didn’t take charity, I said, "Um, hey. I just made some food and I don’t know if it’s good or not. I need a guinea pig because I don’t want to serve it to my parents if it isn’t and besides, you did save my life."
Ji Won looked at her.
'Why is she being so nice to me?' he thought.
He knew she was just saying that because she heard him say he doesn’t want charity.
Ji Won’s stomach was growling like crazy. He haven’t ate for 2 days already and the mention of food was killing him.
"Uh, okay. I guess I’ll be your guinea pig since I have nothing to do."
He studied her face as she smiled at him.
'She’s pretty,' he thought as he smiled back.
to be continued.....
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Friday, June 16, 2006Memory Of What Used To be
I wonder if he remembers me
Or if I'm just a memory
I wonder how he is
And wonder if he's okay
I think about how happy we were
And the memories make the tears stir
To not be able to see his face
Puts my heart so out of place
To not know when he's near
Is my greatest fear
There's so much in my head
That I wish I'd said
There's only so many ways
For me to make it through the days
There's so little light
In my heart tonight
What would I say
What would happen
If I could have him
What joy it would bring
To hear him sing
What would I feel
If he were here for real
I miss him each day
And it has made my heart dim
I wonder if he cares
That's a question i always fear
Or am i just a memory
Of what used to be
still thinking of you at-
Results Of Survey
Top Man: Number 1- Rain
Number2-Ming Dao
Number 3- Edison
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Monday, June 12, 2006TOP MEN. VOTE IT. CHOOSE HIM. TO BE THE CHAMPION.
TOP MEN. VOTE IT. CHOOSE HIM. TO BE THE CHAMPION.
VOTING ENDS ON JUN 15, THURSDAY.
Number 1:
vic. zai zai. zhou yu min
gemini.
180cm.
66kg.
Number 2:
Hu Ge
virgo. 182cm. 72 kg.
Number 3:
Zheng Yuan Chang. joe. xiao zong.
187 cm. 78 kg. gemini.
Number 4:
he jun xiang. xiao mei.
180cm. 62 kg. capricorn is i m not wrong.
Number 5:
Leon Jay Williams . li wei lian. 
leo. 180 cm. singaporean.
Number 6:
Ming Dao. watermelon.
183cm. 70 kg. pisces.
Number 7:
Jay zhou jie lun. 
173cm. 60 kg. capricorn.
Number 8:
Daniel wu yan zu.
186cm. shd be libra.
Number 9:
Edison chen guan xi.libra.
178cm.64kg.
Number 10:
rain/bi zheng zhi xun
184cm.74kg. cancer.
muahahahahahhahahs.
to me lars.
according to miie taste, from the best lar hor... is:
rain, ming dao, zaizai, jay, yuan chang, jun xiang, daniel, hu ge, edison, william
what about YOU?
still thinking of you at-
vomit blood
aiyo. recently spent too much le lar. must start saving lor.
qi kek qi kek qi kek.
aiyo those i angry i dun care le.
cos i care, they give me FUCKING attitude.
then ok.
i go off.
ARE YOU HAPPY!!!
bunch of assholes.
I SHALL NOT CARE.
SHALL NOT ASK.
SHALL NOT HELP YOU ANYMORE.
AHHHHHH!
QI KEK!!!!!!!
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The Story Of The Lost Love
trust. trust. trust!!!!!!
ah! why she dun trust hiim de?
after that then come and regret. gebish!
idiotic lor.
stupid vivian. make zai SO SAD.
haiyo.
cos of distrust.
cos of believing things you see blindly.
cos you give no chance.
cos you dun wan to hear anythin.
you ended up breaking up.
i think it's rather sad lor.
wasted the blood yet in the end...................
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Friday, June 09, 2006faints
in sangdoo let's go to school....
rain is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo GAY.
hahahas.
he very de.. urgh!
sobx.
aiyo.
inside he so de. flirt. no. not flirt.
is too understand how a woman's mind work. SCARY.
BUT nice.
hahas.
hahas. inside he SO DAMN FUNNY.
aiyoyoyoyoyo.
i still prefer boyish rain.
ermx.
todae went to watch the "cars"
it's much better than what i tot.
at least inside it taught me sth.
i loved that line that says:" when is the last time you ever cared for someone?"
i mean it is trying to show that when is the last time ppl cared for other ppl and NOT FOR THEMSELVES WHR THEY CAN GAIN STH.
then later went to the national heart centre.
i almost burst into tears.
haiyo.
wasted me 1.5 hrs.
oh ya.
cheryl came to find me.
had a great time at the arcade. thanks cheryl. for your food.
finally you are back. can have someone to call me liaox.
eh... shd be comin up with the new tem gaain in a few days.
it is ok le. just that dun feel like changing.
i replaced the heart shaped box to rain himself. niice?muahahahaha.
nvm.
oh yea.
i'll be working.ppl. find me. ha
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Thursday, June 08, 2006back again!
yox! back again! hahahahahas. come back with rain template.
hahas. naughty me still say wun like rain.
muahahahahaha.
all full house and three bears fault.
hahahas.
hmmms.
rain lovers!
heyy! notice!!!
i'm coming up with another rain template maybe in a few days.
that one is really VERY NICE!
stay tune to my blog ah... yeah!
still thinking of you at-
Wednesday, June 07, 2006rain rain rain
rain last time very cute de leh.
hahas.
little boy boy look. lols.
better than men men de.
still thinking of you at-
Tuesday, June 06, 2006The End
lies.
hatred.
misunderstood.
cries.
no one shall understands.
let me be alone.
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Friday, June 02, 2006i dun care
i want to tell you. i dun care anymore. cos i can't care anymore.
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a promise.
hmmm
todae went to pray le then go eat prawn noodles.
hmm.
you ah.
fight with me.
i add more chilli than you hor. hahahas.
eh. dun give up hor. i depending on you de leh.
hmmm.
then went to kendall's house. hahas..
he played wo zhi shi xiang yao, qi li xiang, lian ai i.n.g., kiss goodbye, forever love, tong hua.
oh yea. you promise to learn zhen ai and wo zhi shi xiang yao fer me... dun forget hor.
then went ku ma hse. rest a while kendall plays with his new guitar. then watched wang zi bian qing wa. then before we sleep... kendall played cao cao. hahas.
how to sleep sia. then.... dream... dream.. dream.. until ah! dinner timele. then kendall they all went home le i watched ming dao show until now. hhahahahahas. think com gonna burst soon.
oh yea. i finished full house ytd. hahahas. okok. i admit rain is quite cute. but i am NOT MAD BOUT HIM.
i still prefer my hairy bushy monkey. though i know he se se de. hahahahas. same as me. lols. bye!
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Tuesday, May 30, 2006While men turns women into pretty women, we turn guys, into better guys.
Heyys.
haahs. had a great day yesterdae. but my legs trufully hurts a LOT!
haahs. ermx.
girls had wonderful feeling! hahas.
My best production yesterday was jonathan! hahahas.
he looked really good in that blue collar shirt. it was rather out of expectation.. he looked damn perfect with that. hahas. cos he've got "big boobs" lols. jkjkjkjkjk.
then later.
hey limbo. buy the black jacket lehh.
i think it look rather nice on you.
hahahahahas.
oh yeah.
gerald very cute yesterday.
hahahs.
he got himself sth which was pretty nice on him. lols.
it was a men's shirt hunt! hahahs.
ermx.
they guys almost all bought sth.
eh.
it was a rather nice experience. hey lim. wanna go hunt for clothes again? hahahas. contact me if you see this message.
eh. today went back school for nothing.
hmmms.
nvm.
oh yeah.
ming dao really very cute nia!!!
hahas.
ps.
YUE WEN LOVES HAIRY GUYS THAT ARE ABOVE 180CM AND FROM OVERSEAS.
LOLS.
I LOVE HAIRY BUSHY MONKEY!
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Sunday, May 28, 2006haiis.
haiis.
sth horx.
jus can keep in mind. aiyo. dun say le. after i cry again.
haiis.
why can't she understand my effort.
forget it. i've tried my best. there's nothing i can do.
hmmms.
now i am watching wang zi bian qing wa gaain.
haiis.
i miss those days with miie dearr ming dao.
sob.
ming dao ah ming dao. i wun forget you de.
stars are always.
but they may be covered by clouds.
dear stars. i am here again. to find you.
dear ming dao.
i've found you.
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Thursday, May 25, 2006My Happy Days
lalallalalala.
today morning so de funny.
cos denise and jb so funny. lols.
it was tense.
hahas. i couldn't help laughing.
oh ya.
then went to school as normal. had the apex. the guys were damn funny. oh ya. R2 is better. lols.
cos more funny.
then later is ss. so damn sianx!
hahas. speed writing. sick like hell. then recess had yu pian miie fen. lol. strange taste. erm. then... eh... eng.. thruout i doing my own stuff.
erm.
then later is geo. hahas. nice. managed to make the remidial days on el training. muahahahahahahahahaha. that's a wonderful job. then it is chem. lols. do organic. thru out i was toking to denise. we were saying about ppl that are in love look very special. they have a bright light shining from their face. hahas. i could see that from denise's face . lols. jbjbjbjbjjbjb. lols. i taiwan. lols. amanda wakiki.wai hong america. sandra jakarta. oh ya. meiqi also jakarta. pu yuan is korea. hahahas. north korean.
hehe.
oh yeah. i was havin a very good mood. cos i was not upset bout anything for the recent days. hope to carry on.that wonderful and happy feelin.
i shall keep it to myself.
oh ya. today got something very irriating. my shirt kena a marker. which made me. urgh. hahahs.
then took taxi home. then later. jenny they all come my hse then go jon's house. hahahahas. so funny.
we started to play cheat with 2 decks of cards. which were almost endless. hahas. dumb. everyone got 8 cards and could guess hu got what. later played da- ti. but ok lar. then played blackjack and twenty one. that was the most interesting one.
hahas. we were punish to do 1 pumping or 5 jumping jack for one lost game.
got one game zj go bet 20 pumps and he lost. muahahahaha. in the end he do dunno how much pumps and 100 jumping jacks. lols. then later. at last. lim owned zj 17 pumps and then he do until he almost died and then do jumping jack. he looked like a bird. hahahahhaa. then played darts. oh yeah. jenny say she was reminded of shan jun hao. yeah. missed those days with wang zi bian qing wa. hmmms.
now ah.
dunnno do what lehx.tomorrow dun feel like going out.
then erm. see first. see if the organiser gt call me norts.
eh..... hahahs. gtg le lar. gp wash up then go ku ma hse. kkx. bye everyone!
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You're The Special One. I Know. I Just Know.
i silently stayed behind you.
saw you laugh and cry.
i tried my best to make you smile.
but i wonder if you knew.
in your eyes.
i may be stupid and dumb.
i tried my best to let you notice me.
even if a smile will do.
can you come closer?
say out all your feelings.
dun stay in your world.
my sun is waiting for you.
come closer.
be more brave.
even you may say you dun like me.
and i have to be the one-sided love forever.
it's ok.
i'll happily say goodbye to you.
i always secretly watched you.
i never gave up persuing you.
all i wan is jus a nod or a smile.
say out your feelings can?
i am right here waiting!
no matter wat. even i will have to alone all years after now.
i know. you are the one. that has already left a footprint in my heart.!
(Lara- Kao Jin Yi Dian Dian)
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006long long ago
i heard ppl say that.
when you are sick.
and your mind is not clear..
you get lost easily.
lost. as in your mind.
cos your everything is not functioning well.
well.
someone told me before.
when your mind is not clear.
you tend to recall things.
or images that appear from nowhere.
i had some today.
the back flowing memories.
came to me like a gigantic wave.
made me feared that i will once lose the laughter that i am slowly gaining.
it hit me.
and i woke up with tears and sweat.
all i could do.
was really.
to cry. let everything out.
as time flows by.
like someone have told me.
you will slowly recover.
those long long ago.
let them be.
no matter whar.
live happily.
stop being sad.
that is what.
someone in the future whr i cannot foresee.
wants me to be.
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Monday, May 22, 2006todae? not my day!
early in the morning jiu wish canplay basket ball.. then in VL received the final results. ah~ think everything also VERY WONDERFUL except one stupid subject which is A MATHS IS F9. urgh.
others all b and 1 c and somemore got 2 A. actually look not bad. all cos of the stupid a maths. though my L1R5 is not much affected.. but the whole thing pulled my percentage down! ah~~~~
urgh! nvm. something more bad is going to happen...
P.E.
finally, i have a chance to play basketball again. not of my luck todae. VERY DAMN HARD to score even i was right below the stupid basket. ah!!!!! then cannot throw jiu nbvm le. my leg kena sprained! pain~~~~ mummy~ save me! haiis. today the whites damn pathetic. first is sherlin kena left leg. i kena right leg. then denise kena middle finger. even jasmine kena her finger nail. all wore white. evil! this is a curse man!!!!!!!!
haiis. pain pain pain. urgh.
then go physics. hurt my left leg. haiyo. going to cry.
then today asean nvm come. muahahahahhaha.
oh yeah. the hei bai chey todae is lame. hahas. jon lim VERY COMIC sia.
oh yeah. then later is a maths. haiis. do practice paper. yeeee. my a maths SUCKS!!!!
then is CCA. ok lar. todae cca not bad just that sth not very pleasant happened. aiyo. relax lar. oh ya. jon lim and zj betrayed me sia. nver wait for me. good lar. somemore it rained. AH!!!!
evil guys.
now leg like pig trotters. wonder how to go out tomorrow.
if tomoorrow still pain, think can't go out le. haiis.
anyway. pain pain pain pain!
still thinking of you at-
Saturday, May 20, 2006ah~ hot.
lols. early in the morning went cheryl's hse for a swim. her mum came to pick me and i was soooooo scareded by her cat! hahahahaha. wen i reach cheryl's hse, i haven finish takin off my shoes her mum put the cat down le.. then i saw that the cat was about to chio into the house. then i screamed and ran. then the cat ran. lols. what a comic scene!
hahas. then i went into cheryl's room.. she still say she tot someone broke a bowl or what then scream. pls! it's me! hahahas. diaox. -_-'''
the guys were so late. i swam for at least half an hour le then they come.
aiyoyoyoyo. we swam and wwe of course. hahahahahas. sooooo nice. poor zaijun no stamina de. lols. go train lar. glen is the only kept swimming while the others were playing. hahahs.
the guys ah. keep lookin under water for free show. soooooo bad.
lols. then later went shower le cook spagetti. ok lar. not bad.. lols. then i think i fell asleep and woke up watching zaijun, cheryl, amanda and wai playing cards. lols. soooo loud.
jkjkjkjkkjkjk.
hahahahas. today ppl say i very hyper. lols. abit ba.
then went amanda hse. had cookin lessons. lols. we say we shall open a shop selling roti prata and fried mantou. lols. then played mahjong.... and watch zaijun play o2jam. siao de.
wonder why his eyeballs nver drop. so fast lor. dunnno how to press.
hmmms.
then went tam mall and cs for food and walk walk.
hahas. today overall quite nice. cos very enjoyable. then nver really qi kek cos of anything. oh ya. i kena sunburnt liaox. hahahahhas. pain. lols. okok.
think gtg le. wonder what i'll do tomorrow.
ps. surprise!
muahahahahaha.
=PpP
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Friday, May 19, 2006All About Joe Zheng Yuan Chang
Name: Joe Zheng Yuan Chang (Xiao Zong)
Born In: 19/06/1982
Horoscope: Gemini
Height: 188cm (he say de)
Weight: 78kg (should be newtons)
Blood Type : O
Shoe Size: 12 (wow! that's big!)
Jing Shi: 400+
Family Members: Mum, Dad, Elder Sister ( i have sister also.)
Character: Out -going, Friendly, Cheerful
Fav. Pharse: "hao high oh!"
Lurves:-
.black. ( same as me!)
.white.
.staying at home.
.girl with short hair and sporty, cheerful and must be able to communicate with him.
.best is same language.
.watch movie, online games, computer games like xian jian 2, drawing and tennis.
.best in swimming, tennis, drawing. (so cool)
.touching movies.
.eason, madonna, mo wen wei.
.kai te bu lan ji, sammi cheng.
.leslie, zhou xing chi, and.. i dunno how to translate le.
.rain. (super rain fan. haiis. why like tat? lols.)
.scientific bks,alien, comics.
.best comic character: kui.
.japan, greece,roman,italy,bali.
.pop music.
.cats and dogs.
.strawberry, coke.
pain:-
.dad and mum divorced while he was primary 3.
still thinking of you at-
haiyo
urgh! qi kek.
actually wanna change blog skin. then accidentally deleted. then dun feel like changing le. hahas. this is fate man,
ermx today.
is a very hot day.
okok bang bang.
erm basically nth much todae. hahas. saw a very cute neoprint nia. then knew that 2+8 = 6
lols. jkjkjkjkjk. then erms. had a bit confusion about the prom. aiyo. hack care lar. can go jiu hao le. dun care le lar.
oh ya. gerald todae never come again. aiyo. head ache for so many day ah. quickly come back ba gerald. hahahs.
lols.
oh yea. today the boys kena caught and cut their hair. damn short man. sucks.
the barber i mean. cos he like to make the scissors cutting things that sound.
it makes him sound evil.. muahahahahahaha.
dotx.
ermx. then knew ms toh 8/5 birthday.
oh yea. tomorrow is chin meng's birthday.
happy birthday!!!!!
ermx. had to save money liaox. nid to buy sth for myself. hahahahas.
lols.
eh.
tomorrow i going to be a cook. jiang meng's father said before: cook can improve someone's feelings and spread love. hahahas. i shall spread love tomorrow.
lols. nw discuccing VERY IMP matters. gtg. bye!!!
still thinking of you at-
Wednesday, May 17, 2006yawn
i am soooooo tired nw. going to bad soon.
erm todae ah.
hahas. sth funny happened when taurus becomes.. hehehehe.
then the soccer match todae. sucks. draw.
hahas. so ya. chian tat. think you will never get a chance to see miie blog. ermx.
think tat you are not feelin good todae. but hope that you can cheer up soon. hahas. cos the chian tat i know is always so cheerful and smiling...
= )
ermx.
todae ah. almost fell asleep in cca. think recently i get tired easily. today morning sucks man. hate miie mummy. waste my money only.
as if my fault ah.
oh ya. zheng yuan change really. very very very shuai.
lols.
oh ya. becos of him.
i decided t be happy yi dian dian. hahaas. try me bext lar. dunno can or not..
oh ya!
tomorro my dearest kendall's birthdae.
dun forget. you owe me a love song. you promised you will show me hor. hahaha. muacks.
oh ya.
jendall is this boy so cute. lols. know how to play paino. he played so well once that i fell in love with his piano. haahs.
kkx. i go watch show le. bye!
still thinking of you at-
Sunday, May 14, 2006i. finally understood.
i saw you leaving.
i was drown in my tears.
i am lost.
in this dark dark world.
how can i accept the fact that you are no longer there.
i lied to myself that you are still here.
but my tears wn't dry.
perhaps it's fated my life shouldn't have you inside.
say nothing.
cos i don't want to hear.
only thru this way.
i can still have my dreams.
really.
say nothing.
but now.
i know that.
i have to let go.
i saw your back.
slowly.
everything blurred.
still thinking of you at-
sarang
i don't what to say.
i feel so dumb suddenly.
i am lost.
i feel so hopeless.
it doesn't mean that you can get you wanted grades, after studying hard.
it doesn't mean that you'll get the job you want, after studying the related course.
it doesn't mean that you get what you want, after putting in effort.
it doesn't mean that you can get a simple smile from the person you like, after crying like hell.
it doesn't mean that you can get back the love you have gave, after liking someone.
it does mean that i can no longer smile, after i have been hurt so much.
still thinking of you at-
